Law School Finals May '07

It is the week before finals and everyone is running around the library with their heads chopped off looking and asking for the perfect outline for their class. I like to watch the 1Ls stress while making their 50+ page outlines, and then ask me "is that long enough" and have them look at me like I am stupid when I tell them it is too long.
I had a realization the other day when I figured out that my mind is not being opened by law school, but it may be being shut. I only believe this because of my undergrad degree of English. It seems to me that when I was reading Tolstoy the world would open and real thoughts about life would enter. Now it seems that I have become more of cynical person looking at the world in a way of who is liable to who. I like the law, I like what it does, I just want my mind opened more by my studies in law school. I just find it useless memorizing an outline that if I was a real practicing lawyer I could simply look up what I was memorizing. Yet, this is how we are graded and put into brackets; by how much we can memorize and put on paper for an exam. Does that make any sense? Not to me. But life generally does not make sense.